Friday, June 8, 2007

10:39 AM

This is the first time, I'm gonna put things here... emotionally with my family. I am really not feeling well at the atmosphere in our house, it seems like my parents are in a cold shoulder.. Well, to tell you honestly, they've always been in a cold shoulder,it's been years already. They don't even sleep in the same room anymore. My mom just tells us that, my dad wants a warmer air conditioned room and my mom wants a cooler one. Yeah, with simple things like this.. they fight. I really didn't bother them about this, I was really never close to my family. Talking to them is not like me, and knowing them, even though I start to confront them about it, things would just get worst. My mom also told me that the only reason why they are together now is because of US, me and my brother. I guess things won't work out between them.

It makes me sad, this isn't want I want in a family. I may not say anything to them,but it hurts. Can't they just stay in love and care for each other? And not stay because of us, but because they love each other? Does marrying really strengthens the relationship? or simply just ends it? Because if it just destroys the couple, then I just don't want to get married.

They care about right now is money and work. That's all that matters. My dad cares more about other people than my mom. My mom hates my dad. They hate each other. They act as a robot, acting as a mom and dad to us, but really.. they never were like a mom or a dad other teenagers have..

Did you know one thing I hate about a conversation is about relationship to your parents? Everything just falls apart. I envy my friends because their parents still works it out. One of my friend even tells me that their parents sometimes go to "motel" for their privacy. Yeah.. funny right? But, I do wish my parents are sometimes like that,too.

I was sick few days ago. It started out in the car, my mom and dad keep shouting at each other - - me, doing nothing just listening to the shitty conversation. I keep sighing just for them to figure out I am pissed off. But, nothing happens. As if I am a nobody. Aren't they ashamed of their daughter listening to them? Or maybe they thought that I was already used to it because they always fight every single day.

Imagine.. EVERY SINGLE DAY.

I really don't want to rant about this anymore, not here in a blog where people would read it,but I really need to let it out. I really need.. I've always want to tell this to my friends.. but I don't think they would understand it anyway.. I was always happy when I talk to them.. so telling them something unhappy.. is just not like me..

Sigh..

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